Ok Dr. Phil’s wife, Robin, (yes groan, but listen up) has this new app out (iPhone and Android) that’s for people in abusive relationships. It’s called Aspire News and it’s disguised as a regular news app, but when you go to the “Help” section of the app, it leads you to…
Tonight I have this overwhelming sensation that I never want to grow up. I don’t want time to pass by.
I miss all my friends and experiences back home, I miss all my friends and experiences in Austin the past few years. Now all these things are behind me and I don’t like right now. It’s not even that I miss all these people, I just miss all these people together.
I know loneliness works well on some people but it doesn’t work well on me. I realize that I basically just spend every day by myself, in my room.
I miss the days when my friends and I got together every day. There was those people you could call up and say “So, what the hell are we doing today?” And now no one gives a shit about anyone but themselves.
One day my kids are going to call me old because I remember the plastic bag ban being implemented in Austin.
"You mean, people didn’t always have reusable bags?"
It’s going to be weird to explain to my kids that many people were opposed to it because it’s inconvenient.
"But I don’t get it. We still get to use bags."
I don’t know if my kids will be inquisitive enough to ask questions, but I often think that would be their reaction if they end up being so. I spend a lot of time thinking about what parts of our lifestyle are going to carry on to future generations, and when people have “2000’s” and “2010’s” parties, what are they going to dress like? My guess is emo kids and hipsters, because really that’s all we have to our name, I think. I don’t totally know how I feel about that.
My kids are going to be so perplexed that gay people were denied their rights. I’m going to have to explain the sequence of things and my perspective and answer the obvious questions, the questions so obvious no one ever asks.
"But then, what would happen if they caught you being gay?"
Thinking about those obvious questions children ask, I remember that nothing in history is so black and white, really. I remember hearing stories about the civil rights movement when I was a kid, and how I asked someone once what happened to the people who weren’t black or white, but “tan”, like me? Someone should have told me then that there’s more to the story, that it wasn’t just as easy as “black or white”. Most of history is tan, like me.
You see, back when America granted slaves freedom, we thought that was it. We did it. We are all officially people now. That’s great news. But then somewhere around fifty years later, we realized we left out the women, and half of us denied that we did. Finally women got their rights, and fifty years after that, most of us realized we didn’t actually set the blacks free at all. And finally, we did it. The blacks were equal. The women were equal. America was perfect.
Until fifty years after that, when we realized we left out the homosexuals. We didn’t mean to, it just happened. And now most of America is apologizing and making sure no one is excluded.
Except fifty years from now, far after gay marriage has been legalized, we’ll realize we left someone else out. I’m sorry future oppressed person. I swear I don’t mean to, history just happens in this way, and if less people talked and more people listened, maybe you wouldn’t have to wait another 50 years to be un-oppressed.
Maybe instead of explaining to my kids what has happened, I’ll just tell them all this. My kids will have many more pictures to look at of me as a teenager than we did of our parents thanks to digital cameras. But no amount of pictures or HD videos will allow them to know the moment I’m living right now. So maybe with these obvious questions, I’ll just say, “Hey kid, shit happens, then you fix it.”
Whoever wins will get to appoint one to three Supreme Court justices. This election is about whether you want conservative or progressive justices in the highest court of the land for the next forty years.
With conservative judges, the Citizens United decision is…
I know they don’t care like I care but I do care and I’m still lonely.
I didn’t know I was sad until today but I just took a look around and nothing has changed from last year. I’m in the same horribly messy room feeling distant from everyone I know. Working on school, and art projects, and music.